Expectations are high again

I'm feeling very weepy and useless today after last night's podcast recording. I think it went well, it's impossible to explain how this ideology has rotted away our family core in such a short space of time, split parents and children, turned love into suspicion, and turned healthy, protective instincts into targets for scorn.

Even though I have this imperative to inform the world what's been happening for families like ours, I feel it waning. Every time an article or an important ruling or a court case is won I think, this is it! This is the moment that the mainstream understand. This is the moment the safeguarding children begins again. This HAS to be the moment people realise what's actually going on. Seriously though, NOW DO SEE the damage being done? Due to the slow moving removal of this behemoth ideology, I get more and more scared and worried that we parents are just being used to further other people's lives whilst I sit pathetic and unable to move forward with mine.

During these interviews, the reporters barely need to have any input as we parents have so much to say. It's a tragic heartbreaking ideology that destroys families. It has inviegled it's way into all aspects of society, creating problems for so many other marginalised groups. In reality, no one really wants to hear about it this side, the parents who are being lambasted and ignored. The families suffering in silence. We know our children more than any 1hour session EVER will but we are cast aside as the bigotted transphobic enemy.

Perhaps my expectations of these reporters is too high.  We never hear from them again. Some are downright rude and it then feels like they just want a record of them having been *there* at the time. 

I'm sad and ranting. I just hope THIS one will penetrate the mainstream psyche.

It feels like we parents can’t rely on anyone or anything. Living in this space is torture, and I’m torturing myself more by putting our story out there, but it’s a story that has to be told. I’m already in hell....what’s a few more soul-stealing stories, if it helps just one more family hear a perspective they were never allowed to consider?